We just got cleared to close by the underwriter! So excited! Friday we'll sign the paperwork! Finally our first house. I should start the new blog soon!! :)

Still waiting

So the contractor we'd hired to manage our rehab lost his insurance and can no longer do it, so it all starts again. We have to find a new general contractor and he has to submit his bid so we can move on, close on the house and start the renovation. Once that is done, I want to start a new blog, but for now, I will stay here, talking to myself and visiting some amazing blogs about renovation, decoration and thrift finds that I love but can't really buy because I have no house yet...

Yesterday I received a newsletter on my email about The Eat Clean Diet Challenge. I am seriously considering joining it, since I do need to lose A LOT OF WEIGHT, after giving birth to 2 babies in less than 1 year... my Irish Twins! :)
Anyways, I still need to get my car to even consider this as a possibility, I need it to go to the gym... and while on a diet, I might as well have Tom go on it also... he could also lose a couple of pounds.

So we made it to Michigan, and although no one really reads this blog, I will keep on writing just so I have someone to talk to other than my 2 baby boys (myself for now).

We are really cramped in a small hotel room all day long, I don't have my car with me and my drivers' license expired last year before I went back to Brazil, so until the 7th of September (when I will be able to renew it) there is not much I can do but wait in here, with 2 babies, watching TV all day long and waiting for hubby to get home from work to take us out to see life outside...

I am anxiously waiting to close on our house. I went there to see it and I LOVE IT! It will be fun to start this new phase of our lives, finally. I just wished my dad was still around to enjoy it with us, as he would have been proud and had some fun, being an engineer... I miss him so much!

Getting ready to travel

I am almost all packed and ready to go back to the US, but now both babies and I are feeling a little under the weather. It is NOT going to be fun to travel with 2 babies, especially when they are not feeling that well. The weather here is VERY dry, so coughs, sneezes, and even a little fever... :(

I am going to miss my family and friends, but it is time to start over again...

Still missing my dad A LOT. (Dad, rest in peace. I love you!)

We set the date!

For going back to the US, that is! We will be leaving Brazil on the 15th of August, almost one year after leaving Chicago. It's going to be a long long day flying with two babies, but hubby is coming to pick us up and help. We're flying Continental. I hope it's good. I was hoping we could fly straight from Houston to Detroit (where HOME is gonna be), but it looks like we'll have go through Chicago first...

I hope babies behave well.

I hope I do not have a problem with Immigration. God knows how I needed to be here for all this time!

I am going to miss my family though. Hopefully I can be back here for Xmas.

:)

i am so excited i am going to start a new blog soon. we're buying a house. Our first house. Cute and nice and it needs A LOT of work. So I will blog about it so people (mainly my family and friends) can be part of it even from far away. I am just waiting for closing. Hopefully that will be soon. Also I am waiting for the day to move back to the US. I've been away for almost one year now and although it was nice and important to be here for this time (God knows how much this time spent with my father before his passing meant to me) it is time to go back and finally make it HOME!!

So I am still stuck in the same place I've been for the last year or so. Life stopped for a while and although I did complain a lot, and I mean A LOT, about it for a while, I have to admit I am OH SO THANKFUL it did.

So I did everything by the book. I had a plan. I went to school, I graduated. I had a job. Then I met hubby and that meant leaving things behind to move to the US. I did. We planned for baby#1. He (Thomas) came exactly when we wanted (how many people can actually say that, hu?) - after hubby graduated and I got pregnant so I'd deliver before summer, trying not to be miserable when it's 90 degrees outside... and baby was born April 29th! Perfect! And right around this time things stopped going according to plans... I was about 7 months pregnant when hubby lost his job. That was February. We were renting (thank God!). We decided to give the house back to the landlords and I decided to come back here (here is Brazil) and bring baby for my family to meet while hubby would stay with his brother and look for a new job and a new place. I arrived here the day baby was turning 4 months AND I FOUND OUT THE DAY BEFORE THAT I WAS ALREADY 2 MONTHS PREGNANT. And the plan was to stay until a little after Xmas. Unfortunately my dad has a stroke in the beginning of November and was in and out of the ICU for 4 months. I just could not go back to the US. Plus, hubby could not find a job so he was here most of this time supporting me - pregnant, with a little baby in my arms and my SO BELOVED AND NOW MISSED FATHER in the hospital. Dad passed away on March 8th, 3 weeks before I gave birth to Nicholas - baby #2. Nicholas was born March 29th, exactly 11 months after his big brother Thomas and exactly 3 weeks after my dad passed. I thought I was going to die, anyone who has ever lost a father who they adored knows the feeling, but add that a baby and a pregnancy and you have a recipe for a breakdown. But oh GOD IS GREAT! He took my husband's job so I could come and my father could meet his first grandchild. So I could be here to hold his hand for long hours at the hospital. So I could kiss him, hold him, laugh, cry, and pray. So I could be here and have the support of my small but very close family. So I could hug my brother at that horrible time we just don't ever want to come. God kept my husband unemployed for OVER ONE YEAR so he could be here with me (and even gave him airline privileges through an AWESOME friend so he wouldn't spend much traveling back and forth). God knew I needed him by my side. And then, on the same week my father passed away hubby got a job offer! He asked the people if they could wait for him (he explained I had just lost my father AND I was due anytime). And they did. So now hubby has a job in the US. I am still here because I just had my gallbladder removed (gallstones) and because hubby now is looking for a place for us! Then he's coming to get us (I do NOT look forward to traveling with 2 babies) so I don't have problems with immigration (I have been away from the US for almost one year).

Anyway, I finally felt I was able to write about this so difficult times. It is never easy, but I do have to be thankful for having the opportunity to be here and be with my father, and say goodbye and come to peace with everything that's happened.

My dad was only 61 years old, SO SMART, SO HANDSOME... I really wish he had met Nicholas, but God knows best and with that I am ok.

April 29th, 2010

Today is a very special day: we are celebrating my baby's first year! I can't believe he is turning ONE today! So cute, so special, SON, MOMMY LOVES YOU!!!

Today also my second son is ONE MONTH!

Yes, now I am a happy mother of what they call "Irish twins". Thomas Roque (the oldest) and Nicholas Joaquim (the youngest) are exactly 11 months apart. And they are cute as can be.

Nicholas Joaquim

Thomas Roque

...over 2 years later... it is all so different

It's been a very long while since I wrote here, but since I was talking to my sister-in-law (that right now is more like a sister to me) and she mentioned she started a blog for her company, I decided to come back here and see where I had left things at.

I was reading the post about the winter in the US ... well, spring did come after the cold, nasty winter. Do you know the song "Here comes the sun" by The Beatles? It has a whole new meaning to me after living in Chicago. I had heard the song before and never bothered to stop and pay attention to the words, but after my first winter there, OMG... Now I get it...

Here comes the sun, here comes the sun,

and I say it's all right

Little darling, it's been a long cold lonely winter

Little darling, it feels like years since it's been here

Here comes the sun, here comes the sun

and I say it's all right

Little darling, the smiles returning to the faces

Little darling, it seems like years since it's been here

Here comes the sun, here comes the sun

and I say it's all right

Sun, sun, sun, here it comes...

Sun, sun, sun, here it comes...

Sun, sun, sun, here it comes...

Sun, sun, sun, here it comes...

Sun, sun, sun, here it comes...

Little darling, I feel that ice is slowly melting

Little darling, it seems like years since it's been clear

Here comes the sun, here comes the sun,

and I say it's all right

It's all right

And all of a sudden... It made sense!